Venting Past few days have been shit

[yoc]

So 3 days ago I ate dark chocolate, which I forgot had caffeine and so my anxiety went through the roof. I had only eaten some chips and that chocolate that day as well. Next day I ate only chips because the food my mom made was pretty unappetising (literally just some frozen vegetables, pasta and ground meat all together). Honestly, if I hadn't been feeling anxious as fuck, I would've gone to the store and bought some stuff to make some food. Yesterday and today were sort of the same, eating-wise: my stomach almost felt consctricted and eating was difficult. Today I was a lot more anxious also, with diarrhea and nausea, both induced by anxiety. I'm feeling anxious as fuck about eating, but really I just long for a proper meal, which my mom is making right now.

Frankly, this life is shit. This isn't a way to live life. Why would God fuck me over with generalised anxiety for seemingly no fucking reason? Previously I'd feel anxiety only at some times, and then quite weak. Now it's a lot stronger: even my fucking heart and arteries on my neck started hurting somehow.

It's at times like these that I wished I just had a strong anxiolytic so that I can do what I need to do.

ETA: I remember once feeling this same anxiety about eating and constriction of the stomach in 3rd grade. I couldn't fucking eat small shit like sanwhiches. I feel like this is just my body craving for what it fucking needs.

 

[ZZebra786]

i dont want this garbage on my forum, this isnt a meet and greet buddy

 

[AsgardTheFatcel]

Because of chocolate? What the... Weird genetics, man. I can eat a shit ton of stuff and I still feel as always.

 

[AsgardTheFatcel]

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[yoc]

Because of chocolate? What the... Weird genetics, man. I can eat a shit ton of stuff and I still feel as always.

No, it was because I ate a bar of 70% dark chocolate. Chocolate has caffeine, which made my anxiety a lot worse than it was.

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[Lord Fukura]

This makes no sense, how does caffeine exaggerate anxiety in the way that you are portraying? I drink a kettle of earl grey tea on a daily basis, and I don't go into a panic attack. I could also drink a pot of coffee, and the same would occur. Sorry, but I'm not sure I believe this story, it sounds fucking ridiculous. I'm also have anxiety, but you don't see me rant on .net about how some fucking chocolate bar exaggerates anxiety.

 

[Pale God]

Should just have eaten the food your mom made. I love ground beef. I shoplift that stuff all the time. Lol

I only feel shitty after having eaten to many chilli peppers. Maybe I did feel bad in the past when eating junk food but I don’t eat it often anymore except for ice cream.

 

[AsgardTheFatcel]

Chocolate has caffeine

my sister wants to hug u

 

[yoc]

This makes no sense, how does caffeine exaggerate anxiety in the way that you are portraying? I drink a kettle of earl grey tea on a daily basis, and I don't go into a panic attack. I could also drink a pot of coffee, and the same would occur. Sorry, but I'm not sure I believe this story, it sounds fucking ridiculous. I'm also have anxiety, but you don't see me rant on .net about how some fucking chocolate bar exaggerates anxiety.

Everyone's body works differently. I guess caffeine just makes my anxiety worse. Why the fuck would I lie about this as well? What do I have to gain from lying? And so fucking what if you keep your shit to yourself? Fuck I gotta do with that? Bitch.

my sister wants to hug u

Cute haha.

 

[Lord Fukura]

Everyone's body works differently. I guess caffeine just makes my anxiety worse. Why the fuck would I lie about this as well? What do I have to gain from lying? And so fucking what if you keep your shit to yourself? Fuck I gotta do with that? Bitch.

Because you're an attention whore, and want attention.

 

[yoc]

Because you're an attention whore, and want attention.

No, I just felt like posting here. Nigga why the fuck would I want attention?

 

[Lord Fukura]

No, I just felt like posting here. Nigga why the fuck would I want attention?

That's for you to figure out, not me.

 

[yoc]

That's for you to figure out, not me.

No, since you're the one making the accusation.

 

[Lord Fukura]

Sure I am....keep on telling yourself that..

 

[yoc]

Sure I am....keep on telling yourself that..

Fym nigga it's written right there

Because you're an attention whore, and want attention.

 

[Overrated]

Brutal