Panzer
Panzerkampfwagen
- Nov 26, 2020
- 74
I’m going to redo highschool courses to apply to uni.
But I don’t wanna do that shit. Doesn’t matter how much money I am gonna make after, (((they))) will suck it all out of you, tuition alone is gonna cost me almost 100k to begin with... Then rents, mortgages, car payments, all sorts of bullshit adds up quickly...
Example is, if you wanna be a code monkey, working for google thinking you’re gonna be rich? No. Wherever you move to work your high-paying job, everything becomes more expensive, the economy adapts to continue sucking all your soul and labour.
I was already doubtful of all this, I’ve been thinking for some time of saving money to move to a homestead and get away from soyciety... But I was still thinking about this.
Then I was just watching a video on youtube, of speed dating, and the host asked two of the speed daters their body count, the guy said over 60+ and the woman at least 20, these people are young college people...
Then I realized how alone and unwanted I am, I truly don’t belong to society, I am excluded and unloved. Always been.
I am not going to fucking enslave myself STEMmaxxing for years to serve this shit world, I don’t want to contribute ANYTHING to this FUCKING society that stepped and spit on me, imagine being a fucking tech monkey improving the lives of these fucking people. I fucking wish North Korea nuked this fucking planet to FUCKING DUST.
My plan: Live with my parents for a few years, saving all my money, then move to a remote are and set up a self-sufficient homestead, garden, solar panels etc.
Will I be alone? Yes, but I already am alone, I would just be actually reaping the benefits of being alone, that is independence and peace, which I do not get here in civilization being of slave class supporting other people’s enjoyment of life.
I wanna run through the open fields and forests, I want to craft and hunt and farm. Hopefully such occupation will help me find peace and fill the void of rejection.
But I don’t wanna do that shit. Doesn’t matter how much money I am gonna make after, (((they))) will suck it all out of you, tuition alone is gonna cost me almost 100k to begin with... Then rents, mortgages, car payments, all sorts of bullshit adds up quickly...
Example is, if you wanna be a code monkey, working for google thinking you’re gonna be rich? No. Wherever you move to work your high-paying job, everything becomes more expensive, the economy adapts to continue sucking all your soul and labour.
I was already doubtful of all this, I’ve been thinking for some time of saving money to move to a homestead and get away from soyciety... But I was still thinking about this.
Then I was just watching a video on youtube, of speed dating, and the host asked two of the speed daters their body count, the guy said over 60+ and the woman at least 20, these people are young college people...
Then I realized how alone and unwanted I am, I truly don’t belong to society, I am excluded and unloved. Always been.
I am not going to fucking enslave myself STEMmaxxing for years to serve this shit world, I don’t want to contribute ANYTHING to this FUCKING society that stepped and spit on me, imagine being a fucking tech monkey improving the lives of these fucking people. I fucking wish North Korea nuked this fucking planet to FUCKING DUST.
My plan: Live with my parents for a few years, saving all my money, then move to a remote are and set up a self-sufficient homestead, garden, solar panels etc.
Will I be alone? Yes, but I already am alone, I would just be actually reaping the benefits of being alone, that is independence and peace, which I do not get here in civilization being of slave class supporting other people’s enjoyment of life.
I wanna run through the open fields and forests, I want to craft and hunt and farm. Hopefully such occupation will help me find peace and fill the void of rejection.
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