Depression When you need your brain the most but it's rotten from years of isolation

[Asylum Patient]

Currently at a point in my life where I really need to create some passive income streams. Being a seasonal neet working part time while is not gonna last forever, I usually have my breaking point around 8 months or so. It can't go on like this. I don't want this.

I used to be a very sharp mind with good concentration skills. Yes, I am aware that grades don't really have anything to do with being intelligent but let's just say that learning and understanding things was always very easy for me. Even getting my economics degree at university was not that hard. But at the end of it I suddenly started to notice the effects of isolation and existential depression that hit me since I was around 19.

Now at 28 all that's left of that person is just a shadow of a shadow of a shadow... of it's former self. When I read a book now I have to reread most pages multiple times. My memory skills are also very bad. This is a huge problem because now is the time when I need my brain power the most, to break out of the system and create passive income streams to live the neetlife. I hope someone can relate.

 

[WeebHunter3000]

I hardly have the willpower to clean myself on a daily basis. Don’t know how you guys work part time without jumping in front of a truck.

Unfortunately for oldcels like us who’ve been rotting for a while, getting a life of some normalcy is nigh impossible. They say when you don’t socialize regularly your brain literally shrinks.

I just don’t know how we can possibly fix ourselves.

 

[CelticKHV]

How did you get web design job with an economics degree? I don't know if isolation has effected my intelligence but I know that anxiety greatly effects my performance in jobs. Isolation has made me bat shit crazy though as I spend my whole time thinking. Socialising is bad for me too given how much stress it causes me and stress is bad for health in general.

 

[Asylum Patient]

How did you get web design job with an economics degree? I don't know if isolation has effected my intelligence but I know that anxiety greatly effects my performance in jobs. Isolation has made me bat shit crazy though as I spend my whole time thinking. Socialising is bad for me too given how much stress it causes me and stress is bad for health in general.

Never knew what to do with my life, no specific plan or ambitions. So I guess that whole university journey was just to expand the neetlife. My first full time job after uni was a typical economics job in an office but I was absolutely miserable working there. Got fired after 8 months and applied for neetbux.
Then I tried some things out that could work for me and found that I could at least tolerate working in webdesign. Taught myself the basics at home and did two online courses.

Isolation has made me bat shit crazy though as I spend my whole time thinking. Socialising is bad for me too given how much stress it causes me and stress is bad for health in general.

Same. Isolation has crippled me in so many ways. I also overthink everything. What about your concentration and memory skills? Did you have a social circle in high school? I did. I often forced myself to attend social situations but never enjoyed them and felt horrible afterwards.

 

[WeebHunter3000]

I often forced myself to attend social situations but never enjoyed them and felt horrible afterwards.

It’s annoying when you crave socialization but your brain makes you suffer for it. Typically I get exhausted afterwards and feel like crap even if I did enjoy it. Very obnoxious.

 

[Asylum Patient]

It’s annoying when you crave socialization but your brain makes you suffer for it. Typically I get exhausted afterwards and feel like crap even if I did enjoy it. Very obnoxious.

Yes, could be social anxiety with you too. I never got officially diagnosed but pretty much check all the boxes. Not saying that my life would've went different but it is definitely a huge problem in social situations.

 

[Atila]

indeed isolation and loneliness have a big effect on your brain brother

 

[Asylum Patient]

indeed isolation and loneliness have a big effect on your brain brother

Yes but can you "repair" your brain somehow? How to repair damaged dopamine receptors? How to get concentration and memory skills back? I know that its over but I just want to be able to enjoy my copes again man.

 

[Atila]

Yes but can you "repair" your brain somehow? How to repair damaged dopamine receptors? How to get concentration and memory skills back? I know that its over but I just want to be able to enjoy my copes again man.

unironically going complete monk mode and detaching/abstaining yourself from all those things that give you dopamine depending on how fried your receptors are it could take months even years before noticing tiny improvments

 

[Asylum Patient]

unironically going complete monk mode and detaching/abstaining yourself from all those things that give you dopamine depending on how fried your receptors are it could take months even years before noticing tiny improvments

Very good point. I already notice kind of a healing effect when I'm out in nature for an hour and then come back home. The brain fog disappears and I feel little bit better.

 

[CelticKHV]

Never knew what to do with my life, no specific plan or ambitions. So I guess that whole university journey was just to expand the neetlife. My first full time job after uni was a typical economics job in an office but I was absolutely miserable working there. Got fired after 8 months and applied for neetbux.
Then I tried some things out that could work for me and found that I could at least tolerate working in webdesign. Taught myself the basics at home and did two online courses.

Same. Isolation has crippled me in so many ways. I also overthink everything. What about your concentration and memory skills? Did you have a social circle in high school? I did. I often forced myself to attend social situations but never enjoyed them and felt horrible afterwards.

Did I have a social circle? I was a complete loner for the final 2 years of school and to pass the time at lunch break I did laps walking around the school. I did have a few friends from the primary school days particularly a female friend but I haven't seen her in 10 years.

I think my memory is ok but my concentration skills aren't. I can spend hours watching TV if I am interested in the show but in a workplace situation when I am in a social situation I can't concentrate on anything due to my mind being flooded with the social anxiety.

 

[Asylum Patient]

Did I have a social circle? I was a complete loner for the final 2 years of school and to pass the time at lunch break I did laps walking around the school. I did have a few friends from the primary school days particularly a female friend but I haven't seen her in 10 years.

I think my memory is ok but my concentration skills aren't. I can spend hours watching TV if I am interested in the show but in a workplace situation when I am in a social situation I can't concentrate on anything due to my mind being flooded with the social anxiety.

Sry to hear that, didnt mean to open up old wounds. My whole university time was like that, completely alone..always. Same, in a social situation I start to act weird, nervous, being unsure and making lots of mistakes. Social anxiety sucks.

 

[Khaos]

I used to have very good mental capacity and be able to keep a high level of concentration for a long time but traumatic events and continuous isolation anxiety anguish and depression have worn me out a lot mentally to the point where I can barely keep my focus anymore for any prolonged amount of time even for things like copes I just can't concentrate anymore my ability to memorize and remember has also dropped significantly.

 

[Oenz]

Currently at a point in my life where I really need to create some passive income streams. Being a seasonal neet working part time while is not gonna last forever, I usually have my breaking point around 8 months or so. It can't go on like this. I don't want this.

I used to be a very sharp mind with good concentration skills. Yes, I am aware that grades don't really have anything to do with being intelligent but let's just say that learning and understanding things was always very easy for me. Even getting my economics degree at university was not that hard. But at the end of it I suddenly started to notice the effects of isolation and existential depression that hit me since I was around 19.

Now at 28 all that's left of that person is just a shadow of a shadow of a shadow... of it's former self. When I read a book now I have to reread most pages multiple times. My memory skills are also very bad. This is a huge problem because now is the time when I need my brain power the most, to break out of the system and create passive income streams to live the neetlife. I hope someone can relate.

I been isolated for 12 years now. Age 6-18. My Parents home schooled me i refused to do the math they gave me. i used to be sharp and could play video games now just 20 minutes of CSGO makes me tired and got to sleep. I begged and begged my parents for ways to get friends as a kid. They just said get friend alone person that is away from most humans. like saying get a gf incel.
Now i been isolated so long just doing surrogate activities daily where I cant even enjoy hanging out with people. I get paranoid or scared very easily like a ape around a human.
my brain is rotten. 12 years of separation from society.
We live in anti social society where if weird kid quiet kid asks for friends everyone leaves him.

 

[Oenz]

unironically going complete monk mode and detaching/abstaining yourself from all those things that give you dopamine depending on how fried your receptors are it could take months even years before noticing tiny improvments

You would probably die of a stress attack, Chad or Tyrones fist or other reasons before your brain is fixed.
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