anon1822
Banned
- Apr 5, 2021
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Yesterday I was really happy. My father agreed that I won't be able to find any job in this country, seeing that it was already a poor shithole before covid, and now the economy is in the gutter, so many businesses failing etc...
And for a while now I was telling him a bit about how I'm thinking about what business to start, how I can't really find anything but I'm still thinking, it's hard but I really don't want to be some wageslave etc...
And while he understood that, he started coming with his own ideas and completely rejecting mine. But as always, he's such an old boomer (he's 70) with a really weird mentality, that he was almost getting mad that I wasn't accepting his ideas. He started telling me I should do an online PhD from an EU country (it's not so much the PhD he wants me to do, as much as making connections and talking to people, and the PhD being sort of a gateway. He understands the PhD would be somewhat useless), so I get to talk with influential people from the EU (lol) and create connections so I can then do things like be in politics and whatnot, maybe business and import and export stuff. And to be honest I find those ideas downright retarded. Maybe for an extrovert that would work, but I'm so fucking introverted I'm downright agoraphobic. But of course, my introversion is seen as a weakness by him, something temporary that I need to man up and get over. Which I could, I guess, but I'd be even more miserable than I already am, how long would that last? I'm already silently wishing I would drop dead from an aneurysm every day.
And of course he calls my ideas idiotic. One idea I was particularly floating was learning programming on my own, like maybe web dev to make websites and such. And while I have to admit, it is idiotic for me since I'm pretty much retarded when it comes to math and programming and I've tried before, the idea still sounds much better than the vague boomer shit he was spewing, like making connections, having a team, getting to know people, meet people, talk to them.
It boils down to an extremely extroverted boomer mentality vs pathologically introverted agoraphobic lazy autist.
I might just have to suck it up and wageslave at some shitty job. I've already done a bullshit useless master's to appease them (while allowing me to LDAR and not work). I'm not doing a fucking PhD, that shit is just as worthless for a lot more work. Ehh, I hope I drop dead of a heart attack or something, won't have to work then.
Love my father though, he's a great dad, best dad one could have. Just with his little quirks. I'm a disappointment and yet he still has so much hope for me, such a kind soul. His feelings are understandable.
And for a while now I was telling him a bit about how I'm thinking about what business to start, how I can't really find anything but I'm still thinking, it's hard but I really don't want to be some wageslave etc...
And while he understood that, he started coming with his own ideas and completely rejecting mine. But as always, he's such an old boomer (he's 70) with a really weird mentality, that he was almost getting mad that I wasn't accepting his ideas. He started telling me I should do an online PhD from an EU country (it's not so much the PhD he wants me to do, as much as making connections and talking to people, and the PhD being sort of a gateway. He understands the PhD would be somewhat useless), so I get to talk with influential people from the EU (lol) and create connections so I can then do things like be in politics and whatnot, maybe business and import and export stuff. And to be honest I find those ideas downright retarded. Maybe for an extrovert that would work, but I'm so fucking introverted I'm downright agoraphobic. But of course, my introversion is seen as a weakness by him, something temporary that I need to man up and get over. Which I could, I guess, but I'd be even more miserable than I already am, how long would that last? I'm already silently wishing I would drop dead from an aneurysm every day.
And of course he calls my ideas idiotic. One idea I was particularly floating was learning programming on my own, like maybe web dev to make websites and such. And while I have to admit, it is idiotic for me since I'm pretty much retarded when it comes to math and programming and I've tried before, the idea still sounds much better than the vague boomer shit he was spewing, like making connections, having a team, getting to know people, meet people, talk to them.
It boils down to an extremely extroverted boomer mentality vs pathologically introverted agoraphobic lazy autist.
I might just have to suck it up and wageslave at some shitty job. I've already done a bullshit useless master's to appease them (while allowing me to LDAR and not work). I'm not doing a fucking PhD, that shit is just as worthless for a lot more work. Ehh, I hope I drop dead of a heart attack or something, won't have to work then.
Love my father though, he's a great dad, best dad one could have. Just with his little quirks. I'm a disappointment and yet he still has so much hope for me, such a kind soul. His feelings are understandable.
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