Asylum Patient
I want money
- May 13, 2021
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So recently I came across those so called "study with me" videos. Maybe this isn't even a brandnew trend but at least for me it's a new discovery on the internet.
Some of those are soothing, comfy, multiple hour long broadcasts of a study session. Usually they show a modern luxurious room with a perfect view on the big city skyline, like being in the best suite in an expensive hotel.
I think what they are trying to do is to inspire people, to help them with procrastination problems. But all they did for me was making be extremely depressed and envious. I hate the state of my brain right now. Although its better than last year, it's still rotten from years of isolation & depression. I still have huge concentration and memory issues. Last month I started reading "Crime and Punishment" by Dostoevsky and I had to repeat the first chapters multiple times. Sure you could say "Just don't compare yourself to those people". But it's human nature, we do it all the time.
They also make me very envious because of the luxurious lifestyle they portray. Sometimes you see someone in an expensive looking room, maybe from a hotel suite or his expensive villa doing late-night 3hour long coding sessions. IQ mogs me so hard, I couldn't even master PHP or javaScript. I did learn some of it but already forgot everything. If I don't keep at something everyday I get thrown back, I loose all progress, forget everything and have to start from zero again. Fuck these successful people, fuck my stupid brain that's beyond repair and I hope they stop making money with it.
Here are some videos I talk about:
Some of those are soothing, comfy, multiple hour long broadcasts of a study session. Usually they show a modern luxurious room with a perfect view on the big city skyline, like being in the best suite in an expensive hotel.
I think what they are trying to do is to inspire people, to help them with procrastination problems. But all they did for me was making be extremely depressed and envious. I hate the state of my brain right now. Although its better than last year, it's still rotten from years of isolation & depression. I still have huge concentration and memory issues. Last month I started reading "Crime and Punishment" by Dostoevsky and I had to repeat the first chapters multiple times. Sure you could say "Just don't compare yourself to those people". But it's human nature, we do it all the time.
They also make me very envious because of the luxurious lifestyle they portray. Sometimes you see someone in an expensive looking room, maybe from a hotel suite or his expensive villa doing late-night 3hour long coding sessions. IQ mogs me so hard, I couldn't even master PHP or javaScript. I did learn some of it but already forgot everything. If I don't keep at something everyday I get thrown back, I loose all progress, forget everything and have to start from zero again. Fuck these successful people, fuck my stupid brain that's beyond repair and I hope they stop making money with it.
Here are some videos I talk about: