Nishijou Takumi
Neidhardt der Blitzschnelle
- Jun 13, 2021
- 575
What does it mean to be loved? To feel like one is needed to be? I often cannot understand this, while it is felt, it is just that.
In my life, I have been deeply loved, my Mother, Sister, and Grandmother all have loved me very much, as a child up until now. Throughout my life, I have been a very sickly person, when I was 10, I had to get a surgery on my legs that left me using a wheel-chair for 2 years. In that time, my Younger Sister and Grandmother were always attending to me, spending time with me, taking me to parks and cinema, and trying to help with my recovery.
I cannot understand why this is, even in biologically, it makes little sense at times. I feel as though I am not capable to love, perhaps it is my lack of experience or something else entirely, but I want to learn to feel beyond myself. It is one of the few things that I cannot grasp, or come to understand; With time and maturity that may change, but what it is that I know?
In my life, I have been deeply loved, my Mother, Sister, and Grandmother all have loved me very much, as a child up until now. Throughout my life, I have been a very sickly person, when I was 10, I had to get a surgery on my legs that left me using a wheel-chair for 2 years. In that time, my Younger Sister and Grandmother were always attending to me, spending time with me, taking me to parks and cinema, and trying to help with my recovery.
I cannot understand why this is, even in biologically, it makes little sense at times. I feel as though I am not capable to love, perhaps it is my lack of experience or something else entirely, but I want to learn to feel beyond myself. It is one of the few things that I cannot grasp, or come to understand; With time and maturity that may change, but what it is that I know?