anon1822
Banned
- Apr 5, 2021
- 323
I've tried so hard, and it didn't get far. But in the end, it actually really matters.
I've spent so much effort trying to find a job I like. Heck, I've even spent many hundreds of hours trying to find an interest. It's gotten to the point that I already know all the possible comments and responses people could make on any of my threads when asking for advice or whatever. On reddit or wherever else. I already know any possible thing they could say to me.
Despite all these efforts, I found nothing. Not one god damn thing. I just need to find a job that I enjoy. I don't need to love it, all jobs suck technically, but is it too much to ask to not dislike what you do for 8 hours a day every day for the rest of your life? I'd like to enjoy those 8 hours a day. My time on earth is limited, I can't accept being miserable for so long.
But I just can't find any god damn thing. All jobs fucking suck apparently.
No, no. That's not the point. It's not only that all jobs suck. It's that my stupid piece of shit anhedonic brain just can't enjoy anything at all. After the thousands of hours trying to find an interest, I still like nothing. Like, if I at least liked programming or carpentry or something, I could do that. But I don't like anything that's not fucking rotting in bed browsing the internet and watching sitcoms,
I've spent so much effort trying to find a job I like. Heck, I've even spent many hundreds of hours trying to find an interest. It's gotten to the point that I already know all the possible comments and responses people could make on any of my threads when asking for advice or whatever. On reddit or wherever else. I already know any possible thing they could say to me.
Despite all these efforts, I found nothing. Not one god damn thing. I just need to find a job that I enjoy. I don't need to love it, all jobs suck technically, but is it too much to ask to not dislike what you do for 8 hours a day every day for the rest of your life? I'd like to enjoy those 8 hours a day. My time on earth is limited, I can't accept being miserable for so long.
But I just can't find any god damn thing. All jobs fucking suck apparently.
No, no. That's not the point. It's not only that all jobs suck. It's that my stupid piece of shit anhedonic brain just can't enjoy anything at all. After the thousands of hours trying to find an interest, I still like nothing. Like, if I at least liked programming or carpentry or something, I could do that. But I don't like anything that's not fucking rotting in bed browsing the internet and watching sitcoms,