Eren
- Nov 28, 2020
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I was in part of a video presentation shown to the whole school ~a week ago & when it was my part I heard a couple girls behind me mutter "who is that." My cheekbones were popping from all the fat burners I've been taking & I mogged the majority of other guys in the vid so I think it was good attention but at the same time it's really sad. If I died nobody would be at my funeral except for family & I'd have no friends to keep my memory alive in their hearts. I don't even understand how it came to be that I have no friends. When people talk to me I can hold a really good conversation. It's just nobody ever sits with me or asks to hang out. Then if I try & make the first step people get uncomfortable so I fuck off because I don't want to be a cringy creep who can't take social cues. I think it really comes down to the fact I have a intimidating low trust expressionless face which is a shame because it doesn't reflect the inner me at all. People probably look at me sitting by myself and assume I want to be alone & don't see me as remotely approachable.