anon1822
Banned
- Apr 5, 2021
- 323
As soon as I gave a few hints that I don't really want to work ... I felt a shift.
I've been feeling uneasy all day. It's subtle, but things changed. It's not going to be comfortable at home anymore, not as much as before at least. And this was just one vague mention, in a few weeks we'll have to really talk about it and I won't be able to properly dodge the subject.
Damn, I really will have to get a job. Honest to god I'd much rather die in my sleep, I really hope I do. But obviously that won't happen. There's just so many reasons why I don't want a job, there's like 6 different mental illnesses that make a job a living hell for me. 12+ years of depression/anhedonia, agoraphobia, anxiety and maybe even social anxiety, PTSD from social interactions/embarassments during alcoholism, avoidant personality, ADD, maybe even aspie etc... It's going to be horrible.
I've been feeling uneasy all day. It's subtle, but things changed. It's not going to be comfortable at home anymore, not as much as before at least. And this was just one vague mention, in a few weeks we'll have to really talk about it and I won't be able to properly dodge the subject.
Damn, I really will have to get a job. Honest to god I'd much rather die in my sleep, I really hope I do. But obviously that won't happen. There's just so many reasons why I don't want a job, there's like 6 different mental illnesses that make a job a living hell for me. 12+ years of depression/anhedonia, agoraphobia, anxiety and maybe even social anxiety, PTSD from social interactions/embarassments during alcoholism, avoidant personality, ADD, maybe even aspie etc... It's going to be horrible.