anon1822
Banned
- Apr 5, 2021
- 323
Happened 3 times in the past few weeks.
Not only did I not sleep, but my heart beats fast and irregularly so I feel like shit for 2 days after. And each and every time, I don't eat for a few hours cause I have no appetite, and so my pancreas starts hurting in a weird way so my whole body feels like shit and I am glued to the bed. Idk which hurts first, the pancreas or the heart, but one fucks the other.
Anyway, I didn't get excited like this in many years. But now it all happened because I was horny out of my mind and did really stupid and risky things I wouldn't have done in a million years.
Like from trying to get a hooker (and failing), to putting my number/ad on a site like craigslist, to trying to find a woman on reddit to chat with hoping it would lead to more (this one is the most mild but it was the first), to trying to contact every woman's profile I can find on any social media I have access to.
Anyway, it's kinda funny but it also kinda ruined a few weeks for me. It's like I'm not myself, I'm way out of my comfort zone. I'm finally done though, kinda exhausted all my options. Still a virgin, but at least I can go back to my comfort zone, I hope. Maybe my libido will die down lol, it's really uncomfortable, and I seem to want sex way too much, obsessed with it.
And I knew 99% that the plans will fail, but that didn't stop my autistic brain from going into overdrive and keeping me from sleeping.
Not only did I not sleep, but my heart beats fast and irregularly so I feel like shit for 2 days after. And each and every time, I don't eat for a few hours cause I have no appetite, and so my pancreas starts hurting in a weird way so my whole body feels like shit and I am glued to the bed. Idk which hurts first, the pancreas or the heart, but one fucks the other.
Anyway, I didn't get excited like this in many years. But now it all happened because I was horny out of my mind and did really stupid and risky things I wouldn't have done in a million years.
Like from trying to get a hooker (and failing), to putting my number/ad on a site like craigslist, to trying to find a woman on reddit to chat with hoping it would lead to more (this one is the most mild but it was the first), to trying to contact every woman's profile I can find on any social media I have access to.
Anyway, it's kinda funny but it also kinda ruined a few weeks for me. It's like I'm not myself, I'm way out of my comfort zone. I'm finally done though, kinda exhausted all my options. Still a virgin, but at least I can go back to my comfort zone, I hope. Maybe my libido will die down lol, it's really uncomfortable, and I seem to want sex way too much, obsessed with it.
And I knew 99% that the plans will fail, but that didn't stop my autistic brain from going into overdrive and keeping me from sleeping.
Last edited:
