I'm a piece of shit worthless I hate myself everything about me sucks

[St.MattJonesCel]

Hey brocels.. Just know I feel your pain of loneliness and despair okay and I'm always going to be here for you and support you even if incels in the community, blackpillers, doomers hate on me for it and want me dead I don't know why but do you guys ever feel like you are rejected even by your fellow incel brothers? I feel like that a lot, listen folks I have social anxiety and major depression. I think about suicide a lot I wish I was never even born into this world I hate it so much I don't fit in I don't belong here, I just hate that feeling when your own community that is supposed to have your back and help you when you're down.. We cope and hope TOGETHER, NOT division and infighting I hate that shit it pisses me off. Maybe I'm Autistic undiagnosed, might have bipolar, PTSD and who knows what else.. I absolutely HATE interacting with people my social skills are fucking terrible this is just a sign that I'm screwed for life and nothing will change no matter what.. I can't help it, if people that see me only knew the storm that is inside me and how defeated I am.. When I try to tell people that I want to die and I cry out for help they just simply don't care they pretend like I don't even exist and just go on about their day ignoring me and my problems.. Even sometimes incels hate me and I just don't know why.. Everything hurts and I just feel like breaking down sometimes, I'm numb and just dead inside there's fucking nothing left of me. I NEVER DID SHIT IN MY LIFE TO DESERVE A LIFETIME OF HATE AND LONELINESS.. What the fuck is wrong with me why is the world so cruel and evil fucked up. I just wish people cared I wish the world was a better place full of happiness but I just see things getting worse everyday that passes I get a little more defeated. One day I'm sure when it gets bad enough I will most likely become a suicide statistic. No one really cares about men at all.. Our problems go unnoticed by society not cared about not listened to not taken seriously.. People laugh at me and kick me while I'm already down. I get told to kill myself haha I don't even know what to say sometimes I'm just sick of this.

 

[St.MattJonesCel]

BUMP for loner defeated cel. No hope.

 

[gigacel123]

Assuming this isn't a larp, most zoomers probably didnt make it past your first sentence. They don't care. This forum is filled with non-NEET faggots that don't understand the real struggle of NEETdom and inceldom. They're here to be retarded trolls and click shiny emoji buttons.

 

[St.MattJonesCel]

Assuming this isn't a larp, most zoomers probably didnt make it past your first sentence. They don't care. This forum is filled with non-NEET faggots that don't understand the real struggle of NEETdom and inceldom. They're here to be retarded trolls and click shiny emoji buttons.

Fuck LARPers. I'm 22 years old and I still live at home with my parents in the basement everyday I just fucking sit at the computer or sleep, smoke cigarettes play video games watch porn.. I'm fucked up. There is no hope for me I'm a total reject outcast loser I hate who I am. I hate this life. I wish a lot of times I was dead instead of living in incel hell where no one accepts me and everyone hates me and makes my life a living hell by the way they treat me. Sheeple will NEVER comprehend the life of an undesirable like me.

 

[St.MattJonesCel]

I don't even know how and why I'm still here and how I'm still coping, I don't know how you guys cope and continue to live like this. There's no escaping no solution to this hell and misery suffering I feel.

 

[rottingkyre]

I feel like dying everyday, but I wouldnt want to kill myself. My only cope is consooming. Rn waiting for new zelda. As far as relationships go, I hope I can get my android boyfriend in the next 50 years.

 

[saber]

android boyfriend

elab or are you gay

 

[rottingkyre]

elab or are you gay

Im bi and foids are evil so boyfriend is my only option

 

[『 』]

Hey brocels.. Just know I feel your pain of loneliness and despair okay and I'm always going to be here for you and support you even if incels in the community, blackpillers, doomers hate on me for it and want me dead I don't know why but do you guys ever feel like you are rejected even by your fellow incel brothers? I feel like that a lot, listen folks I have social anxiety and major depression. I think about suicide a lot I wish I was never even born into this world I hate it so much I don't fit in I don't belong here, I just hate that feeling when your own community that is supposed to have your back and help you when you're down.. We cope and hope TOGETHER, NOT division and infighting I hate that shit it pisses me off. Maybe I'm Autistic undiagnosed, might have bipolar, PTSD and who knows what else.. I absolutely HATE interacting with people my social skills are fucking terrible this is just a sign that I'm screwed for life and nothing will change no matter what.. I can't help it, if people that see me only knew the storm that is inside me and how defeated I am.. When I try to tell people that I want to die and I cry out for help they just simply don't care they pretend like I don't even exist and just go on about their day ignoring me and my problems.. Even sometimes incels hate me and I just don't know why.. Everything hurts and I just feel like breaking down sometimes, I'm numb and just dead inside there's fucking nothing left of me. I NEVER DID SHIT IN MY LIFE TO DESERVE A LIFETIME OF HATE AND LONELINESS.. What the fuck is wrong with me why is the world so cruel and evil fucked up. I just wish people cared I wish the world was a better place full of happiness but I just see things getting worse everyday that passes I get a little more defeated. One day I'm sure when it gets bad enough I will most likely become a suicide statistic. No one really cares about men at all.. Our problems go unnoticed by society not cared about not listened to not taken seriously.. People laugh at me and kick me while I'm already down. I get told to kill myself haha I don't even know what to say sometimes I'm just sick of this.

The people's who hate themselves can't learn to love others. The feelings of isolation from the world are very real. People who truly can love are few and far between. Life is fundamentally caused by that suffering, the limitations of yourself, the inadequate parts, the inability to be accepted.

The big question isn't why do you feel the way you do, but why doesn't everyone.

In The age where man follows his Desire to numb the pain, Wishes that it would've been better if Being (A term Martin Heidegger coined for our experience as human Being)
would be better if it never existed at all.

God is dead and we have killed him says the madman, how shall we cleanse ourselves of this, the murders of murders. The faith and hope that gave us the love that kept us on the path to life is destroyed.

I can see in your writing that you are a truthful person, genuinely which is a trait that is necessary for your escape from suffering.

One thing I learned that changed my entire existence was that I am a disgusting flawed creature at nature, but who gave me this form? We are born In this state and we make the mistake that the traits of you that were given shape your Being. It is the actions you made in the world despite in that form that is what you are. To do is to be.

By being truthful, and having that hope that maybe, just maybe I can be rescued from the depths of Chaos and in that you made the action to write here.

In doing that, the hope that someone bounded clad with love could help you.

Why did I write this, why am I trying to help you?
Because I love you, I have learned to love everything, this action is the path of life just as your action to be truthful brings life.

2 books that will help you are Viktor Frankel`s "Man Search for Meaning" and Alexander's Solzhenitsyn's "Gulag Archipelago "

Vilktor was a victim of the holocaust and went though immense suffering like, yet he found meaning.
The same with Alexander, he was imprisoned in the Gulag system in Soviet Russia which is described as an archipelago of camps. Despite going though unbearable suffering, he found a reason to live.

I could tell you how, but I think it is best if you read both and see for yourself.
One piece of media that also will help is the Anime Neon Genesis Evangelion, it deals with the same existential crisis.


In the end of this, don't lose hope, I am a person that loves you, because I have learned to love all, therefore don't falter and have Faith, because I have Faith in you.
The irrationality of tragic suffering must be equally balenced by an irrational hope for Meaning.

 

[NeverEndingWinter]

Im bi and foids are evil so boyfriend is my only option

If you're not trolling then why do you even need an android bf to begin with? Male homosexual dating is as easy as dating as a woman.
It's like a woman saying "I'm waiting for android boyfriends"

 

[rottingkyre]

If you're not trolling then why do you even need an android bf to begin with? Male homosexual dating is as easy as dating as a woman.
It's like a woman saying "I'm waiting for android boyfriends"

I prefer women, I can be attracted to man, but ratio is 9 to 1. STDs. I dont enjoy people touching me. Im volcel. Im neeting right now and being in relationship would be weird.

 

[Asylum Patient]

I NEVER DID SHIT IN MY LIFE TO DESERVE A LIFETIME OF HATE AND LONELINESS

I can relate to this a lot. My whole life I NEVER bullied or tried to hurt someone. And there were A LOT of opportunities for that. [UWSL][UWSL]When I was at school there were two extremely shy and one stuttering student in my class who were bullied and made fun of by the sociopathic Normies[/UWSL][/UWSL]. [UWSL][UWSL]I could have joined in, but unlike evil Normies I have something that is called empathy.[/UWSL][/UWSL]
[UWSL][UWSL]Even outside of school[/UWSL][/UWSL] I always tried to be a nice and respectful person and was never criminal. [UWSL][UWSL]And what's the reward for all of that? [/UWSL][/UWSL]
A shit life of depression and loneliness. [UWSL][UWSL][/UWSL][/UWSL]

 

[『 』]

I can relate to this a lot. My whole life I NEVER bullied or tried to hurt someone. And there were A LOT of opportunities for that. [UWSL][UWSL]When I was at school there were two extremely shy and one stuttering student in my class who were bullied and made fun of by the sociopathic Normies[/UWSL][/UWSL]. [UWSL][UWSL]I could have joined in, but unlike evil Normies I have something that is called empathy.[/UWSL][/UWSL]
[UWSL][UWSL]Even outside of school[/UWSL][/UWSL] I always tried to be a nice and respectful person and was never criminal. [UWSL][UWSL]And what's the reward for all of that? [/UWSL][/UWSL]
A shit life of depression and loneliness.

There is no virtue in being weak, a good man is a dangerous man that has his strength contained.
A weak man cannot protect or stand up against anything.
I suggest reading the Tokyo Ghoul manga, this well illustrates how the main character became strong.

You are strong, you have an evil side that reaches down to hell, you have to be honest with all of your feelings and truthfully act them out in the world.
Your life is on the line, you will plunge into despair and to death if you don't.

I commend you for having empathy for the weak, so become strong and be one who pulls up others against tyrannical people's.

That is what a Hero is

 

[St.MattJonesCel]

This motherfucker is cyberbullying an incel and making up pure bullshit LIES about me. Please report his channel for harassment/bullying it has to be deleted.

 

[Looksmax Refugee]

This motherfucker is cyberbullying an incel and making up pure bullshit LIES about me. Please report his channel for harassment/bullying it has to be deleted.

Damn are you an incel celebrity?

 

[Asylum Patient]

This motherfucker is cyberbullying an incel and making up pure bullshit LIES about me. Please report his channel for harassment/bullying it has to be deleted.

Jesus fucking Christ. I just watched some parts of that video and... I mean what kind of an absolute piece of shit is that one guy? He even stalked you on other platforms it seems.
The fact that there is infighting und bullying amongst incels or even neets just makes me sick. Our lives are already hard enough there is no need for that.
Imagine taking this much time out of your short life just to bully another struggling person. This guy is a bigger loser that you could ever be man.

 

[NyanIsHot]

ITS OVER

 

[RR2XCUP]

I dont hate myself I hate soyciety