If I don't ascend soon it's over for me

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LeaveMeAlone

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My motivation and serotonin are at an all time low. If I don't get pussy soon I will drop out of college and become a full time rotting NEET.
 
anon1822

anon1822

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I wish I weren't so incredibly depressed and anhedonic and anxious back in college.

Take my advice: it's x100000000000000 times harder to ascend after college. I literally spent weeks researching ways to meet women. And it's impossible after college if you don't already have a lot of friends and such. Well, at least for guys like me, I'm not attractive so I can't get women through Tinder or cold approach or through hobbies or whatever.

Anyway, try as hard as you can while you're still in college. Join clubs, do any kind of social activity where there's women. And make friends so you can get women through your social circle. And looksmax as much as possible.

It's all moot if you're really ugly cause looks are almost everything, but let's just operate under the assumption you're not that ugly, like 4/10 that can go to 5/10 with looksmaxxing. If that's the case then if you try really hard then you can have a good shot.

Well, good luck mate. Idk if you have the energy and can put in all that effort. If I had a time machine I'd probably end up doing the exact same fucking thing I already did, and just rot again. But you don't need a time machine, you still have your chance bro, go and try if you have the willpower and strength in you.
 
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LeaveMeAlone

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Nov 14, 2021
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I wish I weren't so incredibly depressed and anhedonic and anxious back in college.

Take my advice: it's x100000000000000 times harder to ascend after college. I literally spent weeks researching ways to meet women. And it's impossible after college if you don't already have a lot of friends and such. Well, at least for guys like me, I'm not attractive so I can't get women through Tinder or cold approach or through hobbies or whatever.

Anyway, try as hard as you can while you're still in college. Join clubs, do any kind of social activity where there's women. And make friends so you can get women through your social circle. And looksmax as much as possible.

It's all moot if you're really ugly cause looks are almost everything, but let's just operate under the assumption you're not that ugly, like 4/10 that can go to 5/10 with looksmaxxing. If that's the case then if you try really hard then you can have a good shot.

Well, good luck mate. Idk if you have the energy and can put in all that effort. If I had a time machine I'd probably end up doing the exact same fucking thing I already did, and just rot again. But you don't need a time machine, you still have your chance bro, go and try if you have the willpower and strength in you.
Appreciate it, bro. Sadly i'm an aspie autist retard so I don't think I can make friends with the people in my course. I do software engineering so there's basically no foids here.
I have gotten cold approached many times though but not in a few years and no luck so far in that regard. I'm hoping to ascend through Tinder but I need to take some good pics first.

Did your course have many foids?
 
Lain

Lain

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Drink some low alcoholic beverage and hit bars, force yourself to do small talk with whores that are blasted out of their mind, repeat. You have to remember these whores are there to get shagged and the alcohol rots their prefrontal cortex, I know very unattractive men that get laid all the time doing this simple trick. Bars are designed for easy lays. Or just buy a whore and skip the social game, though it's not the same, it's better in some ways to get to shag any cute girl if you pay a few dollars. There's definitely an alpha feeling from courting a woman and fucking her that lasts long after having sex, you're still putting far too much emphasis on coochie but if you're an incel it's understandable. I felt subhuman until I got laid. Why can't I get something that everyone else is able to get? What's wrong with me? I thought that a lot, then I got laid and the best feeling was just getting rid of those doubts, it wasn't even the pussy itself which is about equal to an onahole in terms of raw pleasure. It's the mental feeling.
 
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LeaveMeAlone

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My course was 75% foids. But when you combine a huge cocktail of retardation like extremely avoidant personality/aspergers/extreme laziness/ADHD/depression/anhedonia/anxiety, and a bunch of other shit that doesn't come to mind, I could've had 99% girls and I'd still be a kissless virgin.

You got cold approached? Well, then obviously your SMV is much higher than mine, so you should be all good. Just gotta get your mental stuff in check and you'll be fine. You won't get girls through your courses, gotta join extracurricular stuff. Just gotta increase the amount of interactions with women. Look at it as each interaction being a success. So that way, if you expose yourself to social situations a lot, eventually you'll get a girl. And if you say your looks are fine, then that's 90% of the problem solved.

Really it just boils down to don't be ugly and interact with women.
Sorry to hear that. I can relate to a lot of what you said. I also feel exhausted when i'm doing anything other than mindlessly scrolling through forums like these or watching short youtube videos. My attention span is fucked. To the point that after watching a movie or playing a video game, I have to "take a break" and go on 4chan or reddit for a quick dopamine boost. I'm low IQ, awkward, lazy, anxious and depressed. Really, i'd like to just have a simple wagecuck job at a grocery store 5 days a week and live in a crappy apartment until I die.
But I can't do that yet. I need to fucking go on a date and stop letting my aspie incel brain ruin every chance I get.

I wish you luck in the future, bro. You planning on getting a job soon? Might meet some foids in the workplace.
 
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Hold out it till 30 and you will get to join the cool guys club
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anon1822

anon1822

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Sorry to hear that. I can relate to a lot of what you said. I also feel exhausted when i'm doing anything other than mindlessly scrolling through forums like these or watching short youtube videos. My attention span is fucked. To the point that after watching a movie or playing a video game, I have to "take a break" and go on 4chan or reddit for a quick dopamine boost. I'm low IQ, awkward, lazy, anxious and depressed. Really, i'd like to just have a simple wagecuck job at a grocery store 5 days a week and live in a crappy apartment until I die.
But I can't do that yet. I need to fucking go on a date and stop letting my aspie incel brain ruin every chance I get.

I wish you luck in the future, bro. You planning on getting a job soon? Might meet some foids in the workplace.
Nah I'd rather die than get a job. I'll try writing soon, maybe that'll work out.

Don't worry bro, things will work out for you. just go out and do things and don't rot in your apartment, that's the biggest mistake you can ever make. I rotted and I still rot cause by now I love the rot and hate every second of not rotting. But as long as you stop rotting every day, you'll be fine. Also, try what the other guy told you. The going to bar things. Just don't drink too much, alcohol is another way I ruined my life, 5 years clean and still suffering the consequences.
 
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LeaveMeAlone

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Nov 14, 2021
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Drink some low alcoholic beverage and hit bars, force yourself to do small talk with whores that are blasted out of their mind, repeat. You have to remember these whores are there to get shagged and the alcohol rots their prefrontal cortex, I know very unattractive men that get laid all the time doing this simple trick. Bars are designed for easy lays. Or just buy a whore and skip the social game, though it's not the same, it's better in some ways to get to shag any cute girl if you pay a few dollars. There's definitely an alpha feeling from courting a woman and fucking her that lasts long after having sex, you're still putting far too much emphasis on coochie but if you're an incel it's understandable. I felt subhuman until I got laid. Why can't I get something that everyone else is able to get? What's wrong with me? I thought that a lot, then I got laid and the best feeling was just getting rid of those doubts, it wasn't even the pussy itself which is about equal to an onahole in terms of raw pleasure. It's the mental feeling.

I used to get approached frequently back when I went to bars and clubs, but that was back when I had something resembling a social life. I don't anymore. All my "friends" moved away and i'm too autistic to make new friends from scratch. And i'm far too aspie to go to a bar alone. I think if Tinder doesn't work then nothing will, my social skills are just far too terrible.
How did you ascend?

Get an escort so you can at least experience pussy. There are escort sites you can use.
I've fucked multiple escorts. It was exciting at first. Now it's still exciting in the moment but afterwards it just feels like I had a premium wank.
 
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Nah I'd rather die than get a job. I'll try writing soon, maybe that'll work out.

Don't worry bro, things will work out for you. just go out and do things and don't rot in your apartment, that's the biggest mistake you can ever make. I rotted and I still rot cause by now I love the rot and hate every second of not rotting. But as long as you stop rotting every day, you'll be fine. Also, try what the other guy told you. The going to bar things. Just don't drink too much, alcohol is another way I ruined my life, 5 years clean and still suffering the consequences.
I don't have an apartment. I live with my parents and they're the main source of suffering and misery in my life. They're abusive, low IQ subhumans who should be shot for ever passing on their genetics. I am considering dropping out of college, getting a full time wagecuck job just so I can move out into my own place.
 
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LeaveMeAlone

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Nov 14, 2021
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Nah I'd rather die than get a job. I'll try writing soon, maybe that'll work out.

Don't worry bro, things will work out for you. just go out and do things and don't rot in your apartment, that's the biggest mistake you can ever make. I rotted and I still rot cause by now I love the rot and hate every second of not rotting. But as long as you stop rotting every day, you'll be fine. Also, try what the other guy told you. The going to bar things. Just don't drink too much, alcohol is another way I ruined my life, 5 years clean and still suffering the consequences.
btw how are you with making small talk? Are you able to talk to people you don't know? I actually got invited out to a bar for Halloween with a guy I kind of know from college, but the whole time I was just sitting there quietly until they started talking to me like a child, only out of pity because I was such a sorry sight.
 
anon1822

anon1822

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I don't have an apartment. I live with my parents and they're the main source of suffering and misery in my life. They're abusive, low IQ subhumans who should be shot for ever passing on their genetics. I am considering dropping out of college, getting a full time wagecuck job just so I can move out into my own place.
Gotta finish college mate. Worst mistake ever would be to drop out. Even if you have to eat coal for breakfast for the rest of the time it takes to finish your degree, do it. Because not being qualified for good jobs is one of the worst things in the world that can happen to you. Get that degree or your life will be an even bigger hell when you're stuck doing shit jobs for shit pay for the rest of your life.
 
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LeaveMeAlone

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Nov 14, 2021
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Gotta finish college mate. Worst mistake ever would be to drop out. Even if you have to eat coal for breakfast for the rest of the time it takes to finish your degree, do it. Because not being qualified for good jobs is one of the worst things in the world that can happen to you. Get that degree or your life will be an even bigger hell when you're stuck doing shit jobs for shit pay for the rest of your life.
I'm studying to be a software engineer. I'm not sure being a code monkey will be much fun. Working somewhere like a grocery or a clothes store honestly doesn't look bad to me. Sure, I wouldn't make much money, but I also don't ever want to start a family and i'd be happy living in a shitty apartment. I don't need much to be happy. I don't care about chasing some sort of dream. I just want a simple life where I don't have to do much and can have fun. Being a wagecuck is mindless work, which is what I like.

Also I genuinely do think i'm too retarded for college. I can't do basic maths. This probably will lead to me dropping out eventually, voluntarily or not.
 
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I'm studying to be a software engineer. I'm not sure being a code monkey will be much fun. Working somewhere like a grocery or a clothes store honestly doesn't look bad to me. Sure, I wouldn't make much money, but I also don't ever want to start a family and i'd be happy living in a shitty apartment. I don't need much to be happy. I don't care about chasing some sort of dream. I just want a simple life where I don't have to do much and can have fun. Being a wagecuck is mindless work, which is what I like.

Also I genuinely do think i'm too retarded for college. I can't do basic maths. This probably will lead to me dropping out eventually, voluntarily or not.
Wagecuck jobs are the hardest ones actually. They might seem mindless, but they actually force you to be mindful, alert and always busy. They're a special kind of hell. The lesser paid jobs have horrible workloads and you're always working, never able to rest.

Code monkey and other software jobs aren't heaven, a job is a job, but they're pretty cushy compared to most other jobs. 90% of the population of Earth, billions of human beings, would sell their firstborn to be able to get a code monkey job in a first world country. Well, I know that doesn't make you feel better cause it's still a hard job and every job is effort and pain, but it's a good job by job standards, even just a junior dev, code monkey as you say.

Anyway, you're still young, and I was also horribly depressed at such an age and much earlier, like you. But it only gets worse if you continue what you're doing. Somehow I always thought it was bad when I was younger, thought I'd hit rock bottom, but it always gets worse if you keep up this lifestyle. So you gotta bear down and graduate, otherwise your life will get much worse.

You gotta start making changes now. Take it easy, slowly, but start making changes. Go to your uni's library, study for a few hours almost every day, join different activities to socialize etc... You won't even see your parents much, and by the time you know it you will have graduated. Damn, I'm almost envious, if you took a deep breath and looked around, you could build a pretty nice life for yourself. Got your health, got your youth. Really all that matters. But we don't appreciate the things we have until we've lost them. I'm guilty of that too.
 
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LeaveMeAlone

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Wagecuck jobs are the hardest ones actually. They might seem mindless, but they actually force you to be mindful, alert and always busy. They're a special kind of hell. The lesser paid jobs have horrible workloads and you're always working, never able to rest.

Code monkey and other software jobs aren't heaven, a job is a job, but they're pretty cushy compared to most other jobs. 90% of the population of Earth, billions of human beings, would sell their firstborn to be able to get a code monkey job in a first world country. Well, I know that doesn't make you feel better cause it's still a hard job and every job is effort and pain, but it's a good job by job standards, even just a junior dev, code monkey as you say.

Anyway, you're still young, and I was also horribly depressed at such an age and much earlier, like you. But it only gets worse if you continue what you're doing. Somehow I always thought it was bad when I was younger, thought I'd hit rock bottom, but it always gets worse if you keep up this lifestyle. So you gotta bear down and graduate, otherwise your life will get much worse.

You gotta start making changes now. Take it easy, slowly, but start making changes. Go to your uni's library, study for a few hours almost every day, join different activities to socialize etc... You won't even see your parents much, and by the time you know it you will have graduated. Damn, I'm almost envious, if you took a deep breath and looked around, you could build a pretty nice life for yourself. Got your health, got your youth. Really all that matters. But we don't appreciate the things we have until we've lost them. I'm guilty of that too.
Maybe you're right. I'm 20 in my first year now. I was meant to start last year but didn't want to waste a year on online classes. I study in the library between classes everyday because I don't really have any friends. But my attention span is so fucked that not much actually goes in. I think if I get a gf and live a normal social life I will be able to focus better. Because right now whenever I try to study all my mind focuses on is "no matter how hard I try, i'll still be going to bed alone tonight while other people will be having sex or going out to parties". It's demotivating. After I finish my Christmas exams, i'll set up a Tinder and hopefully go on dates. I'll have a month off so lots of time to have fun... hopefully.
 
anon1822

anon1822

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Maybe you're right. I'm 20 in my first year now. I was meant to start last year but didn't want to waste a year on online classes. I study in the library between classes everyday because I don't really have any friends. But my attention span is so fucked that not much actually goes in. I think if I get a gf and live a normal social life I will be able to focus better. Because right now whenever I try to study all my mind focuses on is "no matter how hard I try, i'll still be going to bed alone tonight while other people will be having sex or going out to parties". It's demotivating. After I finish my Christmas exams, i'll set up a Tinder and hopefully go on dates. I'll have a month off so lots of time to have fun... hopefully.
Ohh wow, that is young. Whole life ahead of you really.

You need to think less mate. Slow down, that's the anxiety talking. Take things slow, try to identify all these negative thoughts. Try to be aware that they are infiltrating your mind. And block them. Slow down, take a breath, and realize that these thoughts are irrational and they can only hurt you, having these thoughts will never, ever help you. But the thoughts are addictive, I know how it feels. It's scary to let go of the pain. Hurting yourself with these thoughts and wallowing in anxiety and depression somehow feels good, because when things turn to shit you can comfort yourself by at least thinking that you knew it would turn out this way. But it's a lot scarier and harder to actually try to be happy.

Just slow down, do things slowly, study. As long as you put the time in, everything will be fine. Even if you're the slowest learner on earth, as long as you invest the necessary time each day, everything will turn out fine. Both the studying and the girlfriend stuff. It's all about being patient and working at it, slowly, bit by bit.
 
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Ohh wow, that is young. Whole life ahead of you really.

You need to think less mate. Slow down, that's the anxiety talking. Take things slow, try to identify all these negative thoughts. Try to be aware that they are infiltrating your mind. And block them. Slow down, take a breath, and realize that these thoughts are irrational and they can only hurt you, having these thoughts will never, ever help you. But the thoughts are addictive, I know how it feels. It's scary to let go of the pain. Hurting yourself with these thoughts and wallowing in anxiety and depression somehow feels good, because when things turn to shit you can comfort yourself by at least thinking that you knew it would turn out this way. But it's a lot scarier and harder to actually try to be happy.

Just slow down, do things slowly, study. As long as you put the time in, everything will be fine. Even if you're the slowest learner on earth, as long as you invest the necessary time each day, everything will turn out fine. Both the studying and the girlfriend stuff. It's all about being patient and working at it, slowly, bit by bit.
Wouldn't really be able to put it into words, but this is the most motivating thing i've heard in a while. You're right, I need to stop being so anxious and beta. Especially since it encourages people to walk all over me. I need to take control of my life. There's actually an upcoming """anniversary""" of the first time I talked with a girl who asked me out. It'll be 3 years soon. I was such an anxious sperg that it went from her approaching me and asking me out when I had no idea who she was to her calling me a stalker and a rapist lmfao. I need to make sure I ascend before then because each year it's getting more and more painful. "3 years" just sounds like a really long time. I don't think i'd be able to wake up on that day and still be an incel and not rope.

You have any plans for your writing? You're not working right now, right? Try going to a coffee shop. I find those to be super comfy.
 
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anon1822

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Wouldn't really be able to put it into words, but this is the most motivating thing i've heard in a while. You're right, I need to stop being so anxious and beta. Especially since it encourages people to walk all over me. I need to take control of my life. There's actually an upcoming """anniversary""" of the first time I talked with a girl who asked me out. It'll be 3 years soon. I was such an anxious sperg that it went from her approaching me and asking me out when I had no idea who she was to her calling me a stalker and a rapist lmfao. I need to make sure I ascend before then because each year it's getting more and more painful. "3 years" just sounds like a really long time. I don't think i'd be able to wake up on that day and still be an incel and not rope.

You have any plans for your writing? You're not working right now, right? Try going to a coffee shop. I find those to be super comfy.
Yeah, you get it. Thinking too much is a problem. Imagine Chad, do you think he thinks much when having a conversation or just being around people? We think we're smarter cause we have all these analyzing thoughts, all these anxious thoughts. But really we're just being dumber. Human beings are social animals, interacting with others is like fish swimming for humans. And it can be like that for you too, even if you're aspie as hell. Just gotta learn to identify the bad thoughts when they enter your brain, be aware of those thoughts, and block them. So you can have a healthy mindset that will actually help you in your life.

And when it comes to conversations, even if you say something dumb or weird, just be positive and cheerful, laugh it off. Nobody gives a shit if you said something stupid or weird, gotta get over it quickly. It's part of our problem to dwell too much on what we said, others forget it in 5 seconds, why shouldn't you?
 
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Yeah, you get it. Thinking too much is a problem. Imagine Chad, do you think he thinks much when having a conversation or just being around people? We think we're smarter cause we have all these analyzing thoughts, all these anxious thoughts. But really we're just being dumber. Human beings are social animals, interacting with others is like fish swimming for humans. And it can be like that for you too, even if you're aspie as hell. Just gotta learn to identify the bad thoughts when they enter your brain, be aware of those thoughts, and block them. So you can have a healthy mindset that will actually help you in your life.

And when it comes to conversations, even if you say something dumb or weird, just be positive and cheerful, laugh it off. Nobody gives a shit if you said something stupid or weird, gotta get over it quickly. It's part of our problem to dwell too much on what we said, others forget it in 5 seconds, why shouldn't you?
Honestly I wish I was creative enough to even say something weird. Most of the time my mind is blank when talking to people, but yet I talk to myself all the time. I think I missed my social development by only hanging out with my very few close friends growing up who were also as aspie as me. There's only so much I can do to fix it as an adult I think.
 
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anon1822

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Honestly I wish I was creative enough to even say something weird. Most of the time my mind is blank when talking to people, but yet I talk to myself all the time. I think I missed my social development by only hanging out with my very few close friends growing up who were also as aspie as me. There's only so much I can do to fix it as an adult I think.
That's how it is for everybody. We've built up this image in our head where everybody else is really good at socializing and we're so, so bad. Nah, they just don't worry about it. You know how talking about the weather is such a cliche? That's for a good reason. Just relax, stop thinking so much. These are the bad thoughts creeping up in your head, gotta learn to identify them and stop them. Relax.

If you're talking to someone and there's an awkward conversation or nothing comes to mind, just relax and talk about whatever. "Hey, nice/bad weather today, huh?". "Do you like Java? I'm so bad at it lol.", "Man, the cafeteria food is delicious". Just be more easygoing and happy, stop thinking too much. Allow yourself to be "dumber", that's how you become better and more relaxed. That actually makes you smarter and more well-adjusted.
 
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Atila

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