SegmentationFault
Trying to stay whitepilled
- Nov 27, 2020
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There was a similar thread about this and It got me thinking.
When I manage to have a productive day, I'm able to enjoy engaging in some copes like vidya and anime. It's like a treat, a small reward to myself for not being such a lazy slob.
Even when I'm productive, I still feel some guilt about being NEET, I'm not going to lie... but at least I'm taking some kind of action that might make me feel like I'm doing something about my situation and slowly regaining control over tidbits of my life.
The problem is I just can't be productive every single day. I'd love to, but I can't. My lows are really low, and my highs are few and far between.
I tried antidepressants, I tried stimulants and even anxiolytics, nothing really did it for me.
When I'm really depressed, which is a common thing these days, I just lay in bed, staring at the ceiling for hours, It's depressing as fuck... I can't bring myself to do anything.
It's not really about being bored, It's more about feeling guilty for not being productive, which leads me to the conclusion that I'm not deserving of a good time.
I don't know if I'm making any sense tbh...
Can anyone else relate?
When I manage to have a productive day, I'm able to enjoy engaging in some copes like vidya and anime. It's like a treat, a small reward to myself for not being such a lazy slob.
Even when I'm productive, I still feel some guilt about being NEET, I'm not going to lie... but at least I'm taking some kind of action that might make me feel like I'm doing something about my situation and slowly regaining control over tidbits of my life.
The problem is I just can't be productive every single day. I'd love to, but I can't. My lows are really low, and my highs are few and far between.
I tried antidepressants, I tried stimulants and even anxiolytics, nothing really did it for me.
When I'm really depressed, which is a common thing these days, I just lay in bed, staring at the ceiling for hours, It's depressing as fuck... I can't bring myself to do anything.
It's not really about being bored, It's more about feeling guilty for not being productive, which leads me to the conclusion that I'm not deserving of a good time.
I don't know if I'm making any sense tbh...
Can anyone else relate?