anon1822
Banned
- Apr 5, 2021
- 323
Been distracting myself so much for so many years that I haven't really lived in my own country. I've been escaping into the internet, sitcoms, games.
But now that I have to face real life, it's scary. My mood is quickly ruined for the entire day if I have to think about real life. I feel so anxious for no reason, it feels like I'm sick.
Over the years I guess I've become really dependent on my distractions and escapism. I tried to be escaping 24/24, blocking any thoughts of real life.
I guess this is why I repeatedly watched the same sitcoms 50 times instead of watching new movies or tv shows. The same thing happens when I watch new movies, new stuff or browse new sites instead of the same old ones. I get this anxious feeling. I'm dependent on repetition, I am so super anxious when not immersed in my comfy little repetitive bubble of the same sitcoms and same games and same sites.
But now that I have to face real life, it's scary. My mood is quickly ruined for the entire day if I have to think about real life. I feel so anxious for no reason, it feels like I'm sick.
Over the years I guess I've become really dependent on my distractions and escapism. I tried to be escaping 24/24, blocking any thoughts of real life.
I guess this is why I repeatedly watched the same sitcoms 50 times instead of watching new movies or tv shows. The same thing happens when I watch new movies, new stuff or browse new sites instead of the same old ones. I get this anxious feeling. I'm dependent on repetition, I am so super anxious when not immersed in my comfy little repetitive bubble of the same sitcoms and same games and same sites.