Fimbultyr
Currently in search of Hyperborea
- Feb 20, 2022
- 659
Hi, from Germany.
I'm 19 right now, living with my mom. She told me some months ago, that I can't stay till i am 30. I mean it was pretty clear to me and in the end I surely don't want that. But after all it hurts me quite hard. I'm mentally unstable since my borderline gf fucked with my mind 4 years ago, but no one seems to give a shit about that.
Since my last suicidal phase last spring I decided to just NEET for my hole life, but now reality is kicking in and I see no other way, should my mother kick me out in 10 years, to kick my self out of existence next.
Till then I don't have any real goals, besides wanting to read all my books and learn Japanese to hardcore-weeb around for a bit.
I get more and more sensible for everything around me, nearly everything I see or hear hurts, or disturbs me in some form, or another. Seeing all these people living completely happy in their self-created clown world is the worst of all.
What do you guys want to do with your time given in this world?
I'm 19 right now, living with my mom. She told me some months ago, that I can't stay till i am 30. I mean it was pretty clear to me and in the end I surely don't want that. But after all it hurts me quite hard. I'm mentally unstable since my borderline gf fucked with my mind 4 years ago, but no one seems to give a shit about that.
Since my last suicidal phase last spring I decided to just NEET for my hole life, but now reality is kicking in and I see no other way, should my mother kick me out in 10 years, to kick my self out of existence next.
Till then I don't have any real goals, besides wanting to read all my books and learn Japanese to hardcore-weeb around for a bit.
I get more and more sensible for everything around me, nearly everything I see or hear hurts, or disturbs me in some form, or another. Seeing all these people living completely happy in their self-created clown world is the worst of all.
What do you guys want to do with your time given in this world?